12:45 PM


So blessed I feel, whenever I look back at life, generally.

The faces that I see. SunnySara, Baji and Bhai. Deedi Peeno Simi. Hashim.

Bay Ji.

Komal, Arshia, Alina

Marya, Madiha, Atif, Johnny, Shahab, Rana, Jazib, Asfa, Zahra & Zara, Mahaau & Irfan.


The love that I have seen, I wonder, is it common? Has everyone seen so much and felt so much of it?

You would think a girl with 11 best friends, six siblings, three moms and a great husband would be at peace with the love she has had all her life.

Then why is it Baba, that I want more. More of the love you gave me. Baba, why so greedy?

Why does my heart not find peace. Why does it keep wanting you back. So much love, and still wanting that very brand of love that only you could dish out. I have so much, baba. So much that words can never explain. Why being your daughter, I still have such a greedy heart?..

Why my heart has no peace. Why does it just want your hands wrapped around my head & the hug that only a stick-thin baba can give?

Just you baba. I dont want to be ungrateful but only want you. Nothing else. I want you for me, baba. Just me.

nothing else. just you.


Sohaib said...

Hey. I am very sorry for loss. And i am sorry that i had to hear this through your blog.

Well the other Annie i adore, Qurat-ul-Ain Haider once wrote that "He who lives shall suffer death (of a loved one)." I think you know very well about all that. So my best wishes for you.

Good luck.

Xeb said...

I cannot tell you how many times I've felt the same way. When you know you should be grateful for your fortune, and all your ungrateful soul wants is something you can never have again.


But hang in there. It will heal, eventually.


Annie said...

Sohaib, :) thanks. Your words always mean a lot

Xeb, *sigh*

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